She said she was not able to lift her foot up to get out of the shower. I’m thinking,
‘Crap, what do I do now?’ Andy and Zack were home, but Clara would be humiliated for them to have them help her out of the shower while naked. Plus I could not even leave her to ask them for help. I told her that I could not get her out of the shower by myself and she could not get out of the shower by herself, but together we could do it. I pressed my stomach back again into her back, put my hands around her waist and slid my left foot under her left foot and helped lift it out as she hung onto the hand rail. With me standing right up against Clara’s back, I could not see my feet or her feet so it was a bit tricky, but her left foot was out. I said, “We make a good team.” Clara said, “I can’t get my other foot out.” I said, “Remember, we are a team, we can do it together.” I was trying to put my foot under her right foot as she was trying to lift her foot out over the shower stall lip. Then she said, “I’m going to fall.” With absolutely desperation in my voice I said, “NO YOU ARE NOT, DON’T FALL.” In the past when Clara would think she was going to fall, she would allow herself to fall on purpose, so she could somewhat control her fall. I had been in the situation before when this happened when I was trying to hold Clara up and she just becomes dead weight. When Clara uttered, “I’m going to fall” I knew if I did not convince her she was not going to fall, she would become dead weight. Clara repeated those words a second time and I said now with panic, “No
you’re not, no, you’re not” and as I could feel her releasing her body I was desperately trying to hold her up and she was slowly falling. It all happened quickly yet it seemed in slow motion. As Clara’s right foot stayed hooked on the shower stall lip, I was desperately trying to let it out with my foot. Clara went down and I heard a popping noise.
I mentioned earlier in this blog that I am posting exerpts from my book, Life with Clara – One Caregiver’s Journey. My goal has always been that my experience and honesty could help others in this life changing role. My entire account is available at http://www.createspace.com/3469034